thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade
welcome to candice's blog. you have now entered her world of emotions, let-gos and setbacks. please try to tag on the taggie and add happiness into her life and make sure she is not alone on this devastating path of her life. thank you.
hey there ppl, i know my blog's EMPTY. kinda. willl update it often and add more nice stuff soons kays? thanks. (:
and the reasonis you.
.candice.au.eong.tian.ying
.female.
.12goinon13.
.3/11/1992.
.ex-peihwa.current.rgs.bowling.waddlian.104er.
.likes happy endings.
.hates sad endings.
.alicia keys. christina aguilera.
.stressed.
.up.
.totally.
but everythingmeans nothing.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
PFT 2005
i was running. the burning of the track seeped through my shoes seeped through my socks and into my skin; tension; each leap - a crumble; ta ta ta; footsteps. ta ta ta ; slower footsteps. TA TA; even slower; TA; walkwalkwalk;i stopped; my hair was soaked in stenchy perspiration; eyes half closed; blinded by the cruel mr sun; people were racing past me; feel some determination to catch up; ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ; TA. stopped again; at that moment i felt that the most cruel thing on earth was cramps; i willed myself: I WILL NOT FAIL. I MUST NOT; like a whoosh of a push; ta ta ta ta ta; i kept going; ta ta ta; go on; dun care if ure last; ta ta ta; pass can already; hearing the shouts; ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta; the sun was glaring; a drop of sweat trickled past my eye; ta ta. ; ta ta ta; i could catch sight of my finishing line; a gush of wind pushed my forward; ta ta ta ta ta ta ta big ta big ta..... i crossed the line; the shout: 18.30 min!
whoo! i almost failed; k drama over. i had to record for vanessa; i could not even write my name. my hands were trembling. my stomach crunching with pain. crunching by the second. but i PASSED. i was happy yet sad. but i did not cry. cos i PASED
5 items. i was the group in charge. responsible for 12 ppl. how unlucky can i be. everythin. i do. reg no 1 start first. what kind of biased mentality can the world have that the first one on the list based on name must lead and start first? why dun they put themselves in MY shoes. friggggg
first item. standing broad jump. oh SHUCKS. my worse. but so? i just needed to pass. my 2.4 got an E. so all i have to do is to pass every item i can lahs~ beams. i ended up with a miserably miserable score of 150cm. not bad to my standards lahs. then we walked to sit and reach. i was confident. it was alwas my best item and i was like the first? ! scorer in primary schol? and to my disappointment, i got only like 51 cm?! wait a min. it doesn't sound right. i got 56cm in primary school lah? i wanted to request for a re test but i tot of those ppl who couldn't even get an A for sit and reach and my heart softened and so yah, i didn't request. but i was discouraged. but all in all. an E was all i needed. next was inclined pull ups. i looked at the list. 1 pull up to get an E . was feeling sucky so i just did 7 just for fun. i needed an E after all. next was shuttle run. it was the item that i hadn't tried before and i dun even know if i would pass. surprising i got a c. haha we had to take off our socks and shoes. odd feeling mann. but i think it helped (: next was sit ups. i think i got an a or sth. forgot. anyway all i need is an E.
so in total. i got about 20 points. not with the full effort. k so i was quite proud. if my 2.4 had gotten a C. i would have gotten a gold. thanks to MR CRAMPS o.0
yeahh. thanks a lot. arghhhh. everything sucks like helll mann.
hmmm 2 weeks i haven't post. i dunno wat to talk about. too many things. well i shld just talk based on activities NOT ACCORDING TO ORDER KAyS? why don't i talk about..... french controle? kays. i wanna get the horror in me out.
FRENCH CONTROLE : 19 may : thurs
well let me talk about thurs thenn. there was geog. BORING. did the hilda taba thing but i went around talking instead cos i didn't know how to do but everyone did their work and they didn't wanna let me COPY. wadeva. i dunno how to put it. then recess. then DANCE - aesthetics. i was so excited as i loved DANCING. i didn't really like cha cha but i still was really excited. it turned out to be general music. i was like huh. so disappointed and i thot the 3 hr slot was the gonner of my life as i had french controle later and music. not playing but learning. was gonna add chilli into curry. but it was only for one hour. when i heard that we were STILL goin to have dance, my soul totally lighted up lahs. k then we were LOST. where to go for dance/ it turned out to be the gym room. i like the gym room . but i dun like gym ( does it make sense? ) k wadeva. then miss heather was a very nice teacher lahs. i like her quite a lot. we did this repeating step like for half an hour continuously lah. my legs were hurting as i had to point. no i uncontrollably pointed. it was like that. 5,6,7,8,one u transfer ur weight. than u go front back left left front back right right and so on...
then i partnered eunice, the super enthu and egoistic girl in RGS. i was afraid i would come out with some injury or sth. then teacha asked us to decide who wanted to be guy or gal. i ended up being guy didn't really mind. then so suay lah teacher ask reg 1.20.32 to perform. that was ME. dum reg no one again. sEE WHAT I MEAN? totally yucks. then at first i couldn't get beat but when one of my favourite songs by christina aguilera come on over come one over baby played i was like enjoying myself totally. i forgot if i was mouthing the words. scared later ppl say i ego. but i love that song. and me and eunice were like singin to ourselves. then our performance was over. i tot that other 'couples' were much better. feeling inferior. then the teacha tot us to do that step 360 degrees. me and eunice practiced and we performed the last batch. i think we did really ok. (: ok then the excitement was over. DANCE was over. lunch, maths history. the horror really started to grow out in me. BOM like a bomb it just exploded. i ranted all the conjugation stuff out aloud walking around the classroom in circles and circles. and i took the bus with yu qing to moelc and the horror began. i started with ecrite. ok blanks everywhere. didn't know what the heck they were talking about in the passages. and my structure was superly.... blank . gone in the wind. conjugation. the most straightforward part was perfectly alright. rearranging. dun talk bout it. puke. then it was listening. kuchi kuchi ku. it seemed like the voice kept saying that. din know what the heck she was talking about.the true false part i just ticked anything i wanted. k listening was over. i continued with possessifs and interrogation. more blanks. i just filled it in with anything weird thing that came to my mind. closure was worse. haha more more more blanks. at one blank i was thinking real hard and i couldn't get an ans. i was like. thinking: this is retarded. then, eh ? retard? can leh! cos retard in french means LATE. haha. ok then the picture thingy . pukes again. redaction. oh my god it was so easy like real. if i had studies that part it would be perfectly alright kays. ok the teacha said stop and i was like whoo hoo~
tessa sent me and kiwi home again.when i went home i wrote letters, to kiwi, blue duckling and nic. thanks nic for the really nice letter! and kiwi! you better write longer letters >< and lanya, thanks for ur beautiful illustration.
kays so long, will continue my super longs post another day! byes! hope u had fun reading
if i ain't got you|7:20 PM
i've waitedall my life.