strum.i'm waitin for ya.

you're my song.

it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so ~~how~~ can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade

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hey there ppl, i know my blog's EMPTY. kinda. willl update it often and add more nice stuff soons kays? thanks. (:

and the reasonis you.

.candice.au.eong.tian.ying
.female.
.12goinon13.
.3/11/1992.
.ex-peihwa.current.rgs.bowling.waddlian.104er.
.likes happy endings.
.hates sad endings.
.alicia keys. christina aguilera.
.stressed.
.up.
.totally.

i found a reason for me. to change who i used to be. reason to start over new. and the reason is you. i found a reason to show. a side of me you didn't know. reason for all that i do. and the reason is you. in the end, you still despise me but i have to thank you. cux you made me stronger you have come to candice's world her world her life. treasure. cherish. fall. come on don't stop coming desire. bravery* setbacks. the insignificant world. is revolving. into a place smashing through my heart.

but everythingmeans nothing.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

well just decided to blog for a while since i feel empty not updating my blog for so long... kays. not to waste too much time, in 10 min time there is jue dui superstar! i copy and paste some parts nic wrote in her blog [sorry ah nic! ]

Training: boring... the first thing that aunty cat said to us was" today we were gonna practice SPARES" [we: o great. how nice. another exciting training!] " so practice ur pins 7 n 10" [we: wow. this rocks!] -.-" diao. ugh. candice n i came to a conclusion, regarding the shirts that aunty cat wears to training:
yellow: terribly BAD mood [boo...]
black: she's feeling super dao. no scoldings. no praises. no comments.
blue: GOOD mood!!! [yay!]

n... today she was wearing her black shirt. super dao la cann. hmm... she din say nething much bout me la. the usual stuff. like: yar! thats wat i want. or: NIC! u noe ur ball rotation is so UGLY! OR: release BACK UP! haiyo. can even memorise lor. whoot

the results are gonna be announced soon. as in REALLY SOON. o mann. i'm super worried i dun get into the team la. sheesh! this is bad. i mean like of all times, my ball has to start spinning around 3 wks before the c div tournament la. how how how. n i cant stand releasing back up! u broke my nail cann. grr. n when i jus simply release straight, my ball totally doesnt hook! jus goes dead straight lor! haiyo! hmm. mel is so qian bian la! that pokk. likes to used that stupid pic to sabo me lar! XP blehh!

went to yoshinoya. n saw this RGPS kid. white nametag= pri 3... rite? no pri4. yar. i think so. neway. she was sitting at the table diagonally behind me. n.. throughout my whole meal, candice was like "she's still staring at u. she's still staring at u." sheesh. dunno la. i dun even think she's from the bowling CCA la. or maybe its the big RAFFLES word on our backs. haha. then she was like whispering into her mum's ear. n her mum would turn n start staring at us. haiyo. wat. we aren't freaks. hello... bahh. maybe she recognizes me! :D whee. but cant be la. different sessions lor. end of nic's rantings.

hais. i could actually hit the two corner pins very well , but when aunty cat came... bad bad bad. i wanted to hit pin 10, ended up bowling to pin 5. mann. and aunty cat tot i was bowling pin7. tat's the worse thing that could ever happen. well then after a whooshing one half hrs of sparing. we got to play with reactive. damn it i couldnt find my line AT ALL. dam it. anyway, me and kiwi were LATE. that somehow affected my performance the whole training lah. ok we were early. decided to go to great world to look at the cute little pets at the window. then we decided to head for kimseng. going down the escalator. the other direction, a man with headphones and luggages and brooms came up. we were going DOWN. ok i was like ehh this man is siao take broom and headphone and luggage. mad ah. then it dawned on me that he was actually a camera crewman. i stared at kiwi. then we looked down. chen tai ming was staring up at us. you know CHEN TAI MING?! CHEN LI PING'S HUSBAND?!ohh mann. he was so er the. nice looking mann. much nice on the screen. but was pretty skinny though. he was STARING at us. oohmygoshness. then me and kiwi went all over the place finding the best angles to look at him. we even planned to get an autograph. i took a few stupid pics of him. i mean the pics was stupid. not him. ok. we suddenly woke up and it was already time for training. warm up had already started when we reached there. aunty cat kinda talked to us. well... you could say that its our fault but... infatuation lahs.

anyway, i'm not in the team. so who cares?! my love for bowling has suddenly died. i don't like bowling anymore. i don't like to see my balls spinning anymore. training has suddenly become a chore and a stress for me. i 'm tired. tired of all the competitiveness and competition between the 17 of us. really sick of it. a happy cca. turns out to be anger hatred and jealousy. wad kind of logic is this. why must the world be so demanding. competitions. what are competitions for?! no one can be the best. no one. bowling was supposed to be a form of relaxation for me. a time when i can bond with my teamates and laugh. but this june hols, training has been always:

"do you think you can get into the team?"
"aiyah shit sch hols ending already"
"aunty cat seems to be in a bad mood"
"damn it i haven finish my sch hw! eh the eng book review must do what?"
"what's the sch hw?"
"what are you going to eat later? i have no more money"

kay what kinda training is this. it's getting boring and the same. unfruitful. i don't learn much within that pathetic 2h slot. and fancy asking us to waste one hr down there taking our balls and stuff. well i'm not a guai kuai or sth. but. that one hr could be used for play too! mann. and in that 2h slot. much injustice is shown and biasness and also jealousy and kiasu and buganyueness. damn it.argh. training is just a time when i get more stressed up with everything. venting anger on the ball is not a beneficial thing.well you don't usully bowl well when you vent ur anger and that is not good if it's seen by the coaches. -.- and i CANT believe i prepared my speech about my love for bowling. mann. have to present it next tue. well it's all sweet talk babbehh. can't wait for term 3 to end. well that's a rather foolish dream. well my resolution for term 3 is to pass everything. tests, assessmnts, pts. and of course, the days to PASS really quickly. ya. just watched jue dui superstar. realised that doing things in life isn't that easy. the courage and determination. hais. the blind man, i believe. well he didn't sing it very well. i guess it was because of his standing position as one of the judges had mentioned. he should stand up and not move. yah. well not trying to be a music critic here or wad. hmm. but that's ... ehhhh. quite true i gues?!

i terribly terribly never never want sch to start. i have many tings i don't look forward to you know. like speech. gym. tests. pts. well tests and pts are alright. oh wait. butptssuck. ok it's stressing. and teachers arghh. i'm not insulting anyone. not being specific. i didn't mention any name. but teachers are the main cause of my anger mann. today me and nic went home together again. it's like EVERY training me and her go home and lunch together. about the 10th time already. we feel really lonely. no lahs. but nic always treat me!! hahas. tomorrow is geog field trip. although the place's next to my house, the assembly point i hav to take a bus. damn. i bet it's gonna be real boring. one and a half hrs? what can we learn?! well i hate doing worksheets during field trips. worksheets. is that all they can think about?! when during the work, we don't appreciate and admire the natural beauty of xiao guilin. filling in the worksheet would mean observing the rock and scribbling answers down. main purpose: complete the worksheet and get outta this scorching place. worksheets shld be gone through or done in school. well IF worksheets have to be done. the field trip has to be longer. if not the whole one and a half hrs will be doing ws doing ws doing ws. mann. that sucks. not looking forward to tomorrow mann. arghh. PISSED. -waves goodbye

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Video code provided by Music Video Codes HILARY DUFF-FLY
In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday
Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?
[CHORUS] Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly
All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's
nothing left and the world's feeling hollow
Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?
[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly
And when you're down and feeling low,
just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else
In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday
[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try(start to)
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try (start to try)
'cus it's your time, time to fly
In a moment everything can change

ALICIA KEYS - KARMA
Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.
Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin I complete your dream
Now you, sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things I want to and do things for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through
Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back
I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was,you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do wha u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you
Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Gotta stop tryin, to come back to me
What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
It's called Karma baby.
And it goes around.
What goes around, comes around,
What goes up, must comes down,
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me