thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade
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hey there ppl, i know my blog's EMPTY. kinda. willl update it often and add more nice stuff soons kays? thanks. (:
and the reasonis you.
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.female.
.12goinon13.
.3/11/1992.
.ex-peihwa.current.rgs.bowling.waddlian.104er.
.likes happy endings.
.hates sad endings.
.alicia keys. christina aguilera.
.stressed.
.up.
.totally.
but everythingmeans nothing.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
school totally sucked yesterday. firstly there was english. the teacher made us play this stupid game where she thought that we would have a lot of fun. it's a nursery game. first we each had to pick a card from a pile in groups of 12. then for e.g i picked salesman then i had to find my dui xiang to talk to. my CUSTOMER> then we talk for one minute and jot some stuff down. ISN'T THAT THE LAMEST THING ON EARTH?? IT'S SO FUN ISNT IT? -_-" she wasted our recess time putting back the table and chairs. ARGH. unfair. then was recess. in secondary schools (RGS) recesses and lunches are not recesses and lunches. they are a form of RELAXATION, yeah rite.like real. we didn't even go for recess that day lahh. we hardly even go for recess. recess means grabbing some food and gobbling it down and rushing to the clasrroom to finish undone homework. or it can mean being cut down by a dumb teacher who wants to give last minute reminders or use up 10 minutes of our recess with her slow undone teaching in fear of getting sacked. lunches mean more time. but more time to do homework not to eat. school is filled with growling and rumbling stomachs not sincere smiles of happiness. often see worried faces and souls roaming around. that's RGS. the best school in the country RGS . 0.o
during recess we practiced our lit pt. me and elaine went to photocopy the scripts. each script: 9 copies. so we wanted to photostat two copies which means 9 times 2 = 18 pieces of paper. then elaine told the auntie.the photostating machine started zapping the papers. then i saw the same piece of script coming out more than 2 times. elaine too. but we were like busy talking lahh and didn't care. i thought that my eyes were stoning off anyway. after quite a long time, we felt something wrong. then the aunty said to us. you want 18 copies of each paper so many arh? WE WERE ALARMED. elaine was like NONONO! 18 copies altogether not 18 copies of each paper. BUT IT WAS ALL TOO LATE. EVVERYTHING WAS ALREADY PHOTOSTATED OUT. ( I DUNNO WAD ENGLISH I'M TALKING. PHOTOSTATED OUT. BWAHAAS.) WE WERE FEELING GUILTY. INSTEAD OF HAVING 18 PIECES OF PAPER WE HAD 18 TIMES 9 =162 PIECES OF PAPER. THE AUNTY WAS RALLY KIND. SHE DIDN'T ASK US TO PAY FOR THE REMAINING 162-18=144 PIECES OF PAPER. THANK GOD. WE STILL INSISTED ON PAYING BUT SHE INSISTED NEVER MIND. WHAT BOTHERED US WAS THAT ELAINE TOLD THE AUNTY AT FIRST THAT IT WAS 65CENTS ALTOGETHER FOR 18 PAPERS BUT THE AUNTY DIDN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING EVEN THOUGH SHE PRINTED 162 COPIES. THAT'S SO WEIRD. AND WHEN ME AND ELAINE WENT OUT OF THE SHOP, THESE TWO GIRLS WERE LIKE SAYING: AIYO THEY DAMN RETARDED LEH. I STARED AT THEM WITH ALL MY MIGHT. THEY'RE THE RETARDED ONES LAHH. CALLING OTHERS RETARDED WHEN THEY ARE NOT THAT NORMAL. ONLY ABNORMAL PPL CALL OTHERS RETARDED LAH.ABNORMAL IN THE SENSE LIKE NOT NORMAL IN THE BODY NOT EXTRAORDINARY LIKE HAVING A GOOD BRAIN OR SOMETHING. IN A NEGATIVE WAY I MEAN. ME AND ELAINE FELT QUITE DUMB LAH. BUT I THINK IT WAS THE AUNTY'S FAULT. NONONO SHE WAS KIND ENOUGH. BUT SHE COULD USE THE 144 PAPERS FOR ROUGH PAPER WAD. AN ADVANTAGE(: ME AND ELAINE WENT BACK TO THE CLASSROOM AND TOLD SOME PPL WAD HAPPENED AND THEY BURST OUT LAUGHING. ANYWAYS IT WAS QUITE FUNNY. 18 COPIES OF EACH PAPER WAS TOTALLY ABSURD. 162 PAPERS! OH MY GODDESS!
by recess almost everyone had changed into their costumes for lit pt after geog after recess. so almost the whole class skipped recess lahh. limei's group was practically the most prepared group with the most props and most rehearsals. their props were like so pro lahh. our group had hardly any props. everyone looked quite comical in their costumes HAHA. the class was in chaos with blouses and pinafores scattered all over the floor. spectacles on the table. people hiding in corners changing. plastic bags flying. dumped costumes unwanted on the tables. then miss wong our geog teacha came in and was kinda horrified and pissed off at the mess. then she ordered us to clean up the classroom then she would come in and teach her stuff and so we did. then she came in and taught us about earthquakes and stuff and when the bell rang for lit. everybody was like HOH! really lousy. oh no and there was hustle and bustle before miss wong could even say anything. some were excited some were worried it was total chaos. ok then miss wong went out and pandemonium broke out totally. hmmm let me tell u wad everyone wore can really remember.
ME- just wrapped a batik thingy around my waist for mother. had a tie in my pocket for village head. and some cloth and needles in my pocket for sewer.
shirley was in a tshirt and trackpants. she was the village head
carolyn was sexy with a singlet and blouse over her torso
hui wen was totally normal
masha was in a blue cartoon tshirt and a sarong sexy eh
chng yan's hair was bunned up and she wore a green quiksilver tshirt and bermudas and she had a farmers hat tied on her back. KWAI>
shi min was in a white blouse and pink vest and a sarong. GRANDMOTHER
simin was wearing a tie landlord
eunice was in tshirt and three quarter pants. father
kexin's hair was bunned up she was father
lyn wore a low cut blouse and a sarong. mother i think
yi shyuan was perfectly normal cept that she had a pink bandana tied on her hair
kim was perfectly normal cept that she wore her mgs prefects tie
joellyn wore a pink shiny blouse and pe shorts
elaine wore a baggy shirt and pe shorts for KWAI
cassandra just took off her pinafore
xian min wore a spaghetti and shawl and sarong pro NOI
gui qi... i forgot opps sorry mann
tiffany just wore a white tshirt in her blouse and pe shorts
lingyan wore her blouse and tie and trackpants as TEACHEr
penelope wore her pe attire
shaina ... hmmm?
nicole wore a tshirt and pe shorts
esther wore a green shirt and straw hat for father and tie for old village head
celene wore a tie for ghan i think
limei wore a brown blouse and sarong and bunned her hair up -DAWAN
mavis wore an indian thing costume
lydia also
yin yun was normal
lie ting was wearing her yellow bandana as DAWAN
vanessa was in ah mah clothing. as grandmother. or mother. SORRY VANESSA!
yu qing took off her belt as HEAD MONK
si hui, hmmm nothing lehh.
kimberly can't remember
shu han was normal
yupp that's all for costumes. then mr connolly walked in and a rip of fear seared through the whole class. first group to present was limei's group they had lotsa props lahh. they were very confident too. THEIR PERFORMANCE WAS SUPERB. then mr connolly said he was going to pick out a group to perform at random.everyone was praying damn hard. then he said: the village ten years later. THAT WAS OUR GROUP OH MY GODDESS ME. I DIDN'T EVEN MEMORIZE MY LINES LAHH . BROUGHT MY SCRIPT UP. first scene went perfectly alright. cept that elaine and lieting didnt' sing loud enough but i admire their courage to sing so loudly in front of everybody esp the teacher. scene 2 was my and esther's scene. i felt i screwed up the whole performance and drained everyone's efforts. maybe i didnt' speak loud enough. scene 3 was lie ting's and elaine's performance they were totally great. scene four went well too with lie ting's dramatic performance. scene 5 was ok. scene 6 was ok. scene 7 was my scene! i screwed up everything again and simin forgot her lines. i always put the script around me. i feel so irresponsible. the last scene was fine. the thing is we spend too much time changing scenes moving chairs here and there. OK IT WAS ALL FINALLY OVER. WE WALKED BACK TO OUR SEATS FEELING DAMNED DISCOURAGED AND EVERYTHING. the next group chosen was xianmin's group. they had 9 tables joined together as a table masha, kim, eunice, weiqi, celene and xianmin. masha wore her beautiful straw hat. grins. she couldn't climb up the table at the back. everyone was already on them. she flustered and went up to the front and sat there, blocking everyone in the grou p. everyone laughed. then she moved herself a little. still blocking. xian min rolled her eyes haha so funny then they started their performance. their performance was GREAT lahh. and quite comical. then it was shirleys group performance. theirs was so smooth. yu qing was so comical as head monk. we realised that everygroup did not even change scenes once lahh. haiz. it was all too late to think of that. anyways i think we did our best LAHH! (:
then it was maths. dun feel like talking about it. it's meaningless useless and a waste of time. i hardly even paid attention. the teacher was smiling to herself as usual and flashing answers for a second before we could copy anything and saying too bad and go and ask ur fren when we complained that we haven't copied the answers yet. that's ridiculous. then it was. assembly but we didn't go for assembly. we went for the medical health check up. haha i cheated i memorised the letters. the backbone check up had to take out our shirts. me and shaina were waiting quite long for the nurse at station 2 to appear. then this rolly polly indian nursing came striding it. then she asked us: can i have a biscuit first. and she smiled and then she stretched her hand into the tin and a took a biscuit out and took a great big bite. that explained her figure. then everything went fine. i went back to class with carolyn. it was raining cats and dogs then. changed into bowling attire and went with nic to put our bags at the foyer and we went to the canteen to buy drinks. we saw vivian and mel. and nic was over excited at that as usual. the sec twos would not be playing with us today as they had to go for 2.4 run. next mon it's our turn though. nic pinched vivian and she messed mel's hair. i couldn't be bothered to do so. was thinking of something else. a sad thing perhaps. talked to my angel for a while and me and nic went off to the foyer. chrisanda bought a whole bunch of flowers rich mann. we waited for 10 minutes before the bus came hmph. nic, cheryl, kiwi, tessa and aby had to bowl on another lane since the sec twos were not there. leaving me, kavita, moony, chris and keshia with 2 lanes. me and kavita shared a lane. tiring mann. i couldn't bowl properly cos today a freakin girl banged into me when running along the corridor of block j. i didn't even get to see her freaking face lahh. I'M SO SURE I WILL NOT GET TO PLAY IN COMPETITION AND ROLL OFFS IS THE NEXT TRAINING! OH MY GODESS. I HAVE NO EXTRA TRAINING AND NO PRIVATE TRAINING AND BOWLING IN C DIV IS MY DREAM WAD TO DO?! I HAVE TO SUCCUMB TO MY FATE ALREADY LAHH. LIFE IS ALWAYS UNFAIR FOR ME. I HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT AND I'M ALREADY LEARNING. OK THAT HORRIBLE TRAINING WAS OVER. me nic kiwi kavita and tesssa walked through great world city to take bus home. nic bought some bread at delifrance and kavita bought mcflurry. then was walked home. we reached seven elven outside great world city and me kiwi and nic shared the hot chips thingy. it was always so crunchu and nice smelling my stomach was growling as usual. and i also drank my milo as usual. then 970 came and me nic kiwi and tessa boarded the bus leaving kavita and her 2 balls to wait for her bus 16. poor girl. i scanned my ez link card. no money! so embarrassing. i thought i had no coins so i asked for nic for coins. then the bus jerked and nic's 20 cent coin rolled onto the floor! and we tried to find the coin but to no avail. then the bus driver shouted. the coin's here . then nic went to pick the coin up from the floor and gave it to me. i felt so embarrassed lah and felt guilty to nic then i went to tong in the coins and got my bus ticket. then when i opened my wallet i realised i had so many coins lahh. SORY NICHOLETTE! then kiwi and tessa had already moved to the back of the bus without even telling me and nic! so me and nic stood there talking and soon nic had to alight. i didn't want to stand alone so i moved to the back and talked to kiwi and tessa. then at the jkms bus stop i saw my brother waiting for a bus to alight at pei hwa bus stop to take 985 home. but he didn't see me. i didn't why he didn't wanna take 970 to the stop. i banged on the window but he still didn't see me. the bus roared off. then when i alighted at the busstop 985 came immediately. i boarded the bus and went home. i went to pass motion once i reached home. then a few minutes later my bro came home already. cannot be wan wad... 985 comes only once in 15 minutes how could he come home so fast? wadeva. miracles can happen only to others not to me. then i wasted the rest of the day watching tv. it was really funny. at 10pm i went to sleep exhausted cos of all the stress this eoi week and all the bad things happening to me. i need more sleep in order to accept more harsh reality. and i slept real well.
i realised that this is the longest post i have ever written. hope u had a nice time reading it . thanks lots (: and remember, things don't happen the way you want it to be.
if i ain't got you|12:30 PM
i've waitedall my life.
